Regrets

In my life I have really only two regrets.
The first being that I trusted the doctors in the Swedish health care. That is the biggest mistake of my life. That I actually believed they were doing good and let them do their Nazi experiments on me.
But with regret and mistakes comes solutions and opportunity. I am going to drop the entire story, with names and identities, what they did and the criminal nature of it in the public domain.

It takes so little to collapse a structure, if you know the weak points you need only remove the keystone and everything comes down. Every structure has a level of integrity, and thus there are weak points – that is the fundamentals of expression. There are only two structures in nature that are fundamentally standing out in strength, and those who cannot figure out which they are, well, they have not achieved a high level of structural integrity in their minds yet.

The second regret is that I joined Mensa. That was just downright stupid on my behalf. Such a fucked up cult. But yet again this mistake comes with insight and wisdom. I realized just how much of a sad bunch such people are, relying to the point of enslavement on their own definition of superiority. A definition which is very brittle, which is why one is prohibited to speak negatively about them as a member. They have realized their own weakness and how little it would take to bring it all down. But that is not genuine structural integrity. That is a form of subtle blackmailing and oppression, and can be used against them. Thus it is not integrity.

I always thought they were in it for actual expressions of intelligence and actual progression of intelligence, not the vague intellectual definition of “intelligence” in order to cater to their desire for exclusivity based on childhood traumas or whatever drives their desires.
They were funny to observe from an observational standpoint of studying demographics, because they too adhere to the same biological programs like any living being. But most of them have no interest in being aware of that or truly overcoming it.
That became apparent when I witnessed the harassment of disabled people and other in their cult-ural doctrine considered ‘undesirables’.

They love to play with the paradigm of “Harry Potter” as they often refer to anyone outside of their cult as “muggles”, which effectively puts them in the situation and role of the “Death eaters” in that allegory if considering the condescending nature I observed among them.

From all of this I truly learned the nature of cult-mentality and how widespread and subtle it can actually be. And how adherent to intellectual doctrines people are without even being aware of it. And faced with it, all they can do is reject it and deny it, because it would cause too much suffering to accept right away.

How was it that saying went “The more a victim invests, the less chance they will turn back. Eventually, when the opponent is challenged or questioned, it means the victims investment and thus his intelligence is questioned, no one can accept that, not even to themselves.
They are still playing the game, and they do not even realize it. They believe to be on top of it, but they are still playing by the rules of the ego controlling them when they buy into the intellectual notion of superiority.
It is hilarious to witness once you see it.

So in a sense, I am very grateful for that mistake to join them, because I would not have reached the insight any other way; ‘The wisdom grows with every failure’. But the burden of knowledge is immense.
Ignorance would have been a greater bliss.
But that is the choice in ascension.
Acceleration upwards requires knowledge whereas descent requires ignorance.

They left a huge mark in my neuroplasiticity, so much so that it causes me a great deal of suffering. Because that is what they are, a bunch of energy parasites. And they cannot even realize it themselves – which is why they love to point at their own reflection in other and label them as such. It is the same with the expression “loser” or “undesirable” or whatever they use. I am not speaking from a position of superiority, because I do not believe in that doctrine like they do, but from a position of observation.

The very fact that I actually believed in that charity scam is just hilarious on my own behalf. But yet again a failure granting understanding and insight.
Damn I was naive back then.

But then again, I was naive enough to join them, believing their intellectual doctrine. Making myself a victim to their intellectual scheme.
Which builds its foundation on a very brittle and vague definition of Intelligence.
But I overcame that. Because I realized.
It would take so little to tear it all down. The slightest and most sudden change in the understanding of human consciousness and its function.

I guess that is why they push so hard the oppression of the development of the human consciousness. Because anyone who evolves realizes just how pointless their membership is.

That is why I left.
I saw the game.
And it was boring.
I turned back from my investments in that idea of superiority based on a skewed intellectual doctrine. I am simply too mindful and conscious to blindly accept it.
They stagnated their own progression towards consciousness in favor for the sense of exclusivism.

Those are my two biggest mistakes in life. But they also granted me the greatest wisdom and insight.
The former the corrupt nature of the ‘wolf in sheep’s clothing’ within the health care. How the predators, rapists and murderers operates under the label of doing good.
The latter in the illusion of made up intellectual superiority based on vague definitions which cannot even be proven.

And I assume they would hate reading it, but then again, truth hurts.
The only way to deal with egos:
– Don’t. Just walk away.